Just when you think you have things figured out...

A monkey comes along and throws a wrench into the cogs of your (Finally!) smoothly running machine. Fortunately, I've had so many encounters with monkey saboteurs, I am becoming quite adept at dealing with their mischief. I'm not sure yet whether that is a good thing or a bad thing.

So, this year will be an interesting one, and will certainly be vastly different than the last few. I'm looking forward to it in some ways, and dreading it in others. Change is certainly all around me, hopefully it will be change for the better. In some areas, it will be, in others, I'm not so optimistic. Regardless, change will happen, I don't exactly get a say in that.

Was very flattered this morning, it feels really good to be wanted, to feel like your efforts are noticed and appreciated. Its been a while since I really felt that way, so that is very encouraging to me. New opportunities for the new year seems rather fitting, especially when they are totally unexpected.

Not sure how I feel about a lot of things going on around me right now. I feel like things around me are very unsettled and in flux, and I don't like that. My little bit of turf that is the part of my life that I control needs to stop getting torn up by outside forces. I'm going to get better at defending myself from that, and making sure that my life doesn't get thrown into chaos at the whim of outside entities, whether they be people, events or otherwise.

So, tomorrow is Christmas. I have a bunch of unfinished projects sitting in my room that got unceremoniously dropped earlier this week, and now I'm completely at a loss as to what I should do with them. I don't want to throw my work away, but I also am not comfortable putting more effort into them right now. I guess that's what boxes are for. Ever really put a lot of throught and effort into something, and have it completely lose all meaning just before you're done with it? It sucks, a lot.

On another note, I'm planning my first adventure for the new year. :-) I'll post details on it after Christmas. Other than that, though, I'm so totally burnt out on planning and doing everything. I've been putting out so much effort and thought and consideration, I'm pretty much done with that. I'm tired of it. I feel a lot like I did when I stopped doing AMTGARD a few years back, like people in my life were just going along with what I was doing, and not contributing their own effort, not sharing the load, so to speak. So, friends that share the load are going to get a much higher priority in my life than those that don't, this year. That means I need to step it up and hang out with Big Eric, who's been calling me and trying to get together with me for a while now, and things haven't worked out. Time to make them work out, he's put forth the effort, I need to meet him halfway. That's one of my New Years resolutions.

Rather annoyed, though, at a friend who made plans without talking to me first. Not that I can say too much about it, but it would have been better if I'd known what was going on beforehand. Oh well, life goes on.

And on that note, I think I'm going to go get ready for Christmas. I hope all my faithful readers (all three of you?) have a wonderful holiday, and get to spend time with those you love and care about. Make sure you let everyone special to you know how important they are to you, life is too short to let petty differences sour a friendship, or to let laziness keep words that should be said, from being said.

Drive safe, and celebrate life!

Today...

So, finals are done, and now I find myself with an abundance of time to deal with. So, back to my to-do lists, since it'll actually keep me focused for the next month.

Today:
Watch Batman Begins to relax and find my motivation.
Work on Business Plan
Run 8 miles
Eat lunch
Read from Goodman of Paris
Work
Sleep

All in all, should be managable. Possibly. We'll see.